Dear Kitty,

Dear Kitty,

A few posts ago, I wrote about how I am caring for baby birds that had fallen from their nest. They were only a couple of days old; naked, blind and utterly helpless. Two (despite heroic efforts) died and the third…well, it’s gaining strength, eats a ton and it’s eyes opened today. This last one, it might make it.

The kids ask me every time they see me go to feed the baby bird, “Is it still alive or did it die?” They ask this as nonchalantly as one might ask “what’s for dinner?” Death isn’t a big deal around here and there is nothing taboo about talking about it.

A few days ago when I was compiling some questions that one might ask me during an interview, it was asked “what will you tell your girls happened to their natural father?”

They already know, because kids are inquisitive and I refused to skirt the word suicide.

They have brought it up in public situations and mostly I think most people are too shocked to even know what to say. They know that their dad shot himself because his mind was sick and he wasn’t happy. They know that they are alive and he is dead.

It is a little shocking to see a 5yo or a 7yo talk so frankly about death, but even more so to deal with suicide so bluntly. They aren’t aware that most people still say the word “suicide” in hushed tones. They aren’t aware that many see “suicide” as shameful.

They believe that life is life, death is death and neither life nor death is something to be ashamed of or scared of.

A few well-intentioned people questioned them having the knowledge of suicide. “What was I teaching them and was it harmful? Especially at their young ages.

First, I taught them that although their dad did commit suicide, it was a desperate attempt to end his mind hurting. It did not reflect his love for them and he didn’t do it to hurt them. It was a selfish act that had nothing to do with them.

Second, I’ve taught them that all kinds of people hurt. Mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, etc. We don’t always understand why they are hurting, but just because we can’t see their hurt doesn’t make it hurt less. Bodies get sick and minds get sick. Daddy didn’t get help, so his illness took over. When we know someone is hurting, we should always help however we can.

The third lesson is although the worst thing that we can imagine happens, it is no excuse for us to stop living. Death happens, but until that moment there is life happening. Enjoy every moment. We can feel sad, mad or happy and every feeling is OK to have.

Lastly, I hope they have learned that suicide is not shameful and mental illness is OK to talk about. There is no reason to hide in shame of what their father did. There is nothing that should be taboo to talk about. By talking about it, by not hiding from it; we are showing that there should be no stigma on mental illness.

My children know the truth about suicide. They know the hurt that can be caused by mental illness. My prayer is although they have suffered the effects of suicide, that this has made them aware and more compassionate to those around them that may be hurting. May my children never hide in shame of something that wasn’t their fault, but take with them a heart that is willing to stand up from the stigma and be stronger adults who live life with no fear or regrets. I pray that they will advocate for breaking the silence around mental illness and use their experiences to comfort those around them.



Categories: june 2013 diary entry

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5 replies

  1. Bravo. I think you’re doing a beautiful thing, and your girls will be all the better for it. I’m proud of you!

  2. You are doing an awesome job. The subject of suicide is taboo. It is worse to hide it and to have everyone make stuff up about what happened rather than say simply what you say… “They know that their dad shot himself because his mind was sick and he wasn’t happy.”
    yes, a mind can be sick just as a body can be sick

  3. You are absolutely an amazing Mother. This is not something they should feel ashamed about or hide from. He was ill and the illness took over his rational thinking and feeling. He was hurting. So true. How can we help people suffering like this? We can do what you just did: Educate. Let’s talk about this. Let’s get out of our “perfect” little lives and be real and talk about the parts of our lives that need healing. Because we all need to heal is some way, shape, or form. The only way to heal is to not be afraid to see the truth and talk about it and seek help. Seems like people are starting to get honest about mental illness and suicide. Thank God. It is time. Thank you, Alycia, for being a great Mom, for being truthful, and…as always….healing with your words. 😉

  4. I think it is great that you are teaching your children so well because you are absolutely right. There is no shame in saying suicide. As an adult, people look at me inquisitively or with shock when I say suicide, but it is a normal word to my vocabulary these days. There is no shame in suicide or mental health and people need to realize this. I hope one day to teach my own children more about the mental illness that runs rampant in my family and of suicide as it has affected our life. I only hope to take lessons from you to do it. (And any tips you have on how to broach the subject would be great!)

  5. i am bowing to your insight and to your rationale. if only it were spread as easily and quickly as the ignorance that runs rampant in so many areas today. bleshyew ❤

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