This year has amazed me, humbled me and taught me some awesome lessons on blessings.
I will forever call 2012 the “Year Of The Horse.”
I’ll tell you about that in just a moment, but first let me tell you that if you have ever doubted that “things” will never get better or bad situations will last forever; you are so wrong.
There are so many scriptures, random sayings or quotations that discuss good things/blessings that can happen when you choose a certain path in life. I never gave it much thought before, because I was too busy counting the misery moments than the blessings.
Last year, I was sitting there in a self-absorbed pity party thinking that it couldn’t get much worse. I *knew* it could, but I also knew I couldn’t take it if it did.
In a moment of utter mental and emotional exhaustion, I just gave it all over to God. I didn’t expect what He was going to do next, I just knew that I couldn’t manage to do anything on my own.
I still don’t know if it was a moment of full trust in God or if I just threw my hands up and said “Fine. YOU deal with it.” Whatever it was though, He seized the moment and began showing off in big ways. That only furthered and deepened my desire to let Him keep the control.
Yes, it is real easy in moments like that; when blessings are beginning to fall; to have faith in God, but not so easy during those pity party moments. Yet, I didn’t really care about the blessings, I was just tired of living a “dead” life.
Since those “dead” moments when I just gave up, God has done some amazing things. In a little over 12 months, He has taken every little dream, hope or whim that I have had and has made it happen. Yes, He has used a lot of people to come into my life to carry those blessings to me, but I have no doubt who is actually behind it.
Now…The Year Of The Horse…
As far back as I can remember, I loved horses. Breyer was the toy of choice and I drew horses, read about horses and basically breathed all things horse. One of my biggest childhood dreams was to have a horse of my own.
It’s never really been too feasible and it was just one of those things in the back of my mind that I would do one day when it seemed right.
A few days ago, I was just driving around and had just got done photographing some horses; the strangest text came through on my phone.
“I don’t suppose you have room for a horse, do you?”
It seems that one of my best friends has a horse that is just not working on her property with the other horses, so she thought of me…although I don’t think I ever expressed the desire to own a horse.
A little twinkle came in my eye, followed by a huge guffaw and then a trip to a tack store.
This beautiful creature is being given to me. The joke is that he is a “Loaner” horse and the terms of if I like him, I can keep him forever as mine.
“The Year Of The Horse”
I really would like you to think of life in that phrase. Before you give up. Before you let the pity party get out of control…know that you have “The Year Of The Horse” waiting on you.
Last year, I was crumpled on the bathroom floor, crying my eyes out and thinking that things couldn’t get much worse.
This year, I am building a horse pen.
The blessings on my life that have been poured out have been obscene. Sometimes I hate telling people what all has been done, because I was once at a point where I heard about things like this and was jealous of the people it happened to. It didn’t seem fair and I thought “Why not me?” Now I want to tell people and ask, “Why not YOU?” It can happen and I’m proof. If there was ever a person who didn’t seem to deserve a happy ending, I was sure it was me.
There are still things that I want, relationships that I want to heal and dreams that I have, but God has shown me that absolutely NOTHING is impossible.
I can’t guarantee that you will ever have a horse drop in your lap, but I can promise you that when you decide to stop counting your misery moments, you will be amazed at the blessings that crop up around you.
…and frankly…start looking forward to “The Year Of The Horse” for yourself.