I learned through this past year that just because I am not in control does not mean that there is no control.
Many times when I was in the middle of the “stuff whirlwind” I felt as though there was no purpose. I couldn’t imagine that any of this was planned. It was out of control in my mind and I was lost as to how I could possibly even come out on the other side of it standing; much less better off than I was. It’s because it wasn’t what I envisioned for my life. I wasn’t MY perfect plan, so it was “out of control.”
My life has been planned out with a purpose and while I may not understand it…as long as there is breath in my lungs I am still fulfilling the plan. I get side-tracked and I make mistakes….yet, did I? Perhaps those sidetracks and mistakes are actually lessons that I need for the next challenge that I am to face.
Not a single day or a single face passes that wasn’t meant for me. Every tiny detail is part of a bigger part. I wrote more about that at “Connections and Coincidences” Each part is a little piece of a huge 1500 piece puzzle dumped out on the floor. It looks pointless and if I try to design my own picture it won’t work. I have to match piece by piece until it matches the design that it was created for.
It’s up to me to continue to walk along the path that has been designed even though I don’t know where it will lead. It takes faith that where I am being led is to better me and not to hurt me. To be available every time I am called to be ME. Because when I am out of control…I am in control…HIS control.