In the wee hours is what gets me. I know I could phone a friend, but what on earth would I say? I know if I polled the audience they would just tell me to go back to bed…
Yet, in the wee hours is when I can’t breathe. It’s when the weight of the world sits squarely on my chest and dares me to get up and try to fight.
The wee hours is when I am scared, when there is no one there to hear my pain.
All this you left behind. So much to do.
Small things like my closet door is broken and I can’t seem to fix it. The cabinet that hangs slightly to the right because I can’t seem to fix it. Children’s hearts that are hurting that I can’t seem to fix it.
So much to do and in the wee hours, I lack the strength.
When you are up and thinking and sad know I am with u in spirit. I think the most important thing is just to FEEL all the things you need to right now, let the emotions just pour out whether they are good or bad. I love u and am here for u. Xo
Everything is always worse in the night. What I do is pray. I don’t know if it will help you.
Grieving has to be done. I am sorry that you have to do this… Prayers for you.
If you need to call in the wee hours of morning…CALL! If you don’t know what to say, don’t worry about it. Once we have established that you are not stranded on the side of the road somewhere, it would be pretty self explanatory. The late hours are when things creep up on me, too. Nothing as drastic as what you are going through, but “What am I gonna do if I don’t find a job”, is a frequent flyer through my brain. So,,,,CALL! Start the conversation with, “Hi, it’s Alycia. I’ve forgotten how wonderful you guys all say i am, and I am scared….can you remind me please?”
The wee hours will be hard for quite some time. You will get through it however, you really will. Bit by bit it will ease, until then I hope you do have someone to whom you can talk and will not be judgmental.
Much love to you.